i'm trying my best to keep a stiff upper lip. god help my roommate for being such a flake. yup, i have to move, again. after only four months or whatever it has been. ahhhh!!!! i'm so fucking pissed off. i know it will work out and a better situation will come along. but oyy! what a freaking hassle to move again. to pack again. for baby boy to have to come back to a different house again.

i've eaten close to nothing today. i don't want to go to bellydancing with erica. i want to go home and watch movies and smoke pot. i can give myself one day to feel this and process through this.

i handled it very well with danielle. she was so apologetic and yet seriuosly deluded all at the same time. she really needs to just put her foot down with her child and whip his ass into line. whatever, it's not my problem anymore. but i can't believe she was like telling me what as a parent "she" would want for my boy. uh yeah, thanks but no thanks.

jeezus h. christ.

and yet i'm alive. i'm breathing. i'm not dying of cancer. i don't live in the war zones of iraq.

as much as this feels annoying, i really have nothing to bitch about. things could be a lot worse and i am very blessed to have all that i do. it'll just take a little work to find a new place and pack and move in and all that. just another challenge, a bump in the road, that i will rise above.

i am a steely strong woman, grrrrrr! :P

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Last Five
treasure - Thursday, Sept. 06, 2006
need - Sunday, May. 22, 2005
where is here - Friday, May. 13, 2005
save me. - Monday, May. 09, 2005
nonsense - Sunday, May. 01, 2005

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