so taking ambien during waking hours is not such a hot idea. sure, it's okay if you're at home and you get blurry and don't remember stuff. what's the worse that could happen, maybe I rearrange the closet and don't remember the next morning until i go get a shirt?

so last week after work i went for a walk, got something to eat at fat apples. thought i'd go see a movie. saw the passion of the christ which i could have done without. took an ambien during the movie. also had a bit of caffeine earlier in the day. i thought, well, it's only 11, i should go play pool. played pool, sucked at it. bummed a couple cigarettes. or at least i think i remember cigarettes. then decided, hmmm, i could go to the city!! i think by this time it was about midnight. i think i went home first and changed. i don't remember much of the drive over. yet somehow i drove superbly. it didn't really have any affect on my motor skills, just basically remembering things. even while i was doing stuff i could barely remember doing it. at some point i didn't even care and could barely hold one minute to the next. i miraculously wound my way to north beach. maybe had a drink at vesuvio, tried to hunt down specs which i remembered as a nice friendly dive. but it had been transformed into someplace yuppy teenagers on vacation might go. at some point i went to the hustler. i either gave or received a lap dance. or both. i think i was only there about twenty minutes until i got bored.

i lost my really cool purple hat too. it is somewhere in north beach. hhmmm. and i have no idea where it is. because there might have been other bars i went to. i just called around to the places that i can recall being and no luck.

so, what lesson have i learned here? don't take ambien if i'm not at home!! or if i do make sure i'm around SAFE people. it's a good thing i'm so antisocial when i go out. urrm, except for the whole lap dance thing. at least i think that happened.

i also found a full pack of cigarettes in my bag i don't remember buying and a box of pizza in my room.

when i got home i was freaking crazy. i think i tried drawing for a bit. put on two different movies and didn't watch them. maybe even organized the closet. i don't think i actually fell asleep till about 4 am.

i slept till maybe ten and then went into work (cat was away). hung out there for a couple hours checking email. i headed home about 2pm and slept. i slept until 8 o'clock, woke up for a bit and watched some tv, maybe went back to sleep around 10. slept until 10 am, got up and took a shower, got back into bed. got up around 1 to clean the kitchen, went back to bed. finally around 4 i decided i'd make the trek down to my aunts.

and what did i do while i was there, one might ask? curled up on the couch under a blanket and watched tv. oh yeahh, that's some weekend.

i get to go home now. i think i'll just go to bed. bed has been sounding really good lately. why go out? i can sleep, or read or write, or watch a movie. and most importantly i can avoid my roommate.

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Last Five
treasure - Thursday, Sept. 06, 2006
need - Sunday, May. 22, 2005
where is here - Friday, May. 13, 2005
save me. - Monday, May. 09, 2005
nonsense - Sunday, May. 01, 2005

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