well then. my home computer is totally and utterly fucked. i'm not quite sure what happened too it. but it's fucked. i i have to take it in and have the hard drive backed up and then overhaul the damn thing.

oh well, the time away from it will do me good. i was getting, erm, i am, quite addicted to it.

i actually wrote last night because i couldn't get online. miracle of miracles.

yesterday my dad barted up to N.Berkley and then we went out together to the city. sans heather!! i think it was the first time we spent the day together by ourselves in over five years. it was great. we went to the SFMOMA, which was fun for me, and i think a bit of a stretch for my dad. then we went over to the metreon which was much more up his alley. it was wonderful to spend the day with him. but jeezus, was it hot in the city!

the flowers in our front garden are blooming, each day i'm noticing more of them. different types, kinds i haven't ever seen before.

i'm starting to pay attention to what is going on around me. starting to be in the moment. i have noticed that always, no matter what i'm doing, even if i'm enjoying myself, i'm rushing through things to get to the next thing. it's quite maddenning because i never get to fully enjoy any one thing. i have been so used to struggling to get someplace that i haven't noticed that where i am right now is exactly where i need to be.

i live in a beautiful place. i can take my time to enjoy it. now is the time to take it in because inevitably things will change again and i will soon be in another place.

there is an unhurried rest in that.

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Last Five
treasure - Thursday, Sept. 06, 2006
need - Sunday, May. 22, 2005
where is here - Friday, May. 13, 2005
save me. - Monday, May. 09, 2005
nonsense - Sunday, May. 01, 2005

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