well then, i am home now all by myself. it is late late late. and i'm tired but i'm still taking several goodies that will ensure that i don't wake until tuesday if i'm lucky. will smoke a bowl also.

i am tired.

baby boy's father is a letch.

matt is stressed and busy.

what Matthew may or may not know is that someday again, he will be mine. and i will be his. and won't our families be overjoyed about the whole thing.

maybe not yet. not nearly as soon as now. someday though. because i Believe it. sure, sure, if some other person comes along and sweeps me off my feet and they seem better than matt, i might consider it. but they'd have to be pretty spectacular. it's hard to find another matt considering all his idiosyncracies that endear me to him so. so sure, keep the options open and all that.

but based on the "joy can have any many she wants," theory and the definiton i layed out for "have" in a post previously....I CAN have any man I want. And the man i want is...well, i'm sure we can all draw our own conclusions.

so there. as long as i stay the course and do my work, the magic the universe has in store for us will unravel in it's own time.

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Last Five
treasure - Thursday, Sept. 06, 2006
need - Sunday, May. 22, 2005
where is here - Friday, May. 13, 2005
save me. - Monday, May. 09, 2005
nonsense - Sunday, May. 01, 2005

ALL