i really need to start printing out these posts again. so then there will be a permanent record of all of this. and i can look back and laugh at my folly. save it for posterity. plus, it's just a matter of time before the server crashes and all of it is lost. but it's bad enough writing it, why would i want to back, back months and months to re-read it? meh, do it anyway, save it for posterity.

back to the topic of needing to find something to do with myself. i think i got a bit sidetracked when i tried to address this in the last post. finding something to put my energy into would help things along considerably.

i almost want to say that modeling would work to fill my time. but, i'm sure there are healthier things for me to involve myself with.

um...knitting? shit. this is really difficult because the boy is only gone for two months and then he's back and i have to drop everything. sure, i can take classes, exercise, take walks, write etc. but what i really need is something to wrap my mind up in. something that will consume me in a way that so and so did/does. i can't really think of anything i want to do.

i want to move away, that's what i want to do.

hhhrrmm, okay, so something that will temporarily occupy me until i can get over this hump. i suppose the easiest thing would be another bf. i hate that word. i think i hate men. okay, what about a girlfriend? that might be okay. i just need something.

PLEEEAAAAASSSEEEE!!!!

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