so...

i think the larger issue here is this: i am nervous about baby boy leaving. i don't know quite what i'll do with myself. and it's freaking me out a little. and since my habit the past few months has been to worry over M., I default back to that rather than dealing with the real problem.

but i will be fine. i will find good things to do. maybe i'll start rock climbing. i already do a little bit. i could go to the climbing wall place in addition to indian rock. plus the guys are hot. i think i could be really good at it. i should take a class. i think i'll look into that. plus olivia could come up and teach me too. i should visit her more.

i will do new things and meet new people and things will seem less scary. so there. please note that today has brought us 9 entries so far. read them in order from the beginning of the day to witness the sordid process. see "older" link. it's not pretty, but it gets better.

---

Last Five
treasure - Thursday, Sept. 06, 2006
need - Sunday, May. 22, 2005
where is here - Friday, May. 13, 2005
save me. - Monday, May. 09, 2005
nonsense - Sunday, May. 01, 2005

ALL