finally i am home...i was home earlier for a brief while, but now i get to rest.

right after work the boy and i came home and i heated the chick rolls and had them with steamed brocoli. it was so yummy. we still have one chick left. then i changed the boy quickly as he was covered in sand and mud. and before i knew it it was time for the ANAD meeting.

we hadn't met in such a long time that there was a lot of discussion about how to recruit new people, when to meet, etc. the check in was good i suppose and it was really good to see sally. next friday corina and i are going to go out to a "straight" club, as she calls it. good, cuz i wasn't so much digging the gay vibe, it was kinda boring.

i had bribed the boy with icecream so he'd behave. it sort of worked. so after the meeting we went up solano to the icecream place. it was nice to eat a sundae after talking about eating disorders for almost two hours.

i realized i wouldn't mind a softer body. having a few curves. looking like a woman instead of a teenager. a warm, ripe belly.

oh, and i also snagged a book at the meeting. the people who have the building are leaving and they had a bunch of free stuff on a table. one of the things was a book they publish, a pocket size edition of the buddha's teachings. pretty good find. i've started reading a little..

at the meeting i also came across copies of some pages of "that which you are seeking is causing you to seek", that i had made some time ago. i don't know what happened to that book, but i think i lent it to ranee. we're going to try and start having regular weekly meetings again. it would be good for all of us.

as tired as i am, and as all over the place as i have been emotionally today, i have to say i'm quite pleased with myself. i came through in one piece (of course!) i think i challenged myself a bit today and came out the better for it.

it was good to see matt today. it was so sweet of him to bring the oasis cd, i thought he wouldn't remember. it seems like he is doing well despite all that he has on his plate. he is putting forth so much right now, i hope he is succesful in all he does. wait a sec, it's matt, of course he'll be successful!

this will be a good time of growth for all of us.

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Last Five
treasure - Thursday, Sept. 06, 2006
need - Sunday, May. 22, 2005
where is here - Friday, May. 13, 2005
save me. - Monday, May. 09, 2005
nonsense - Sunday, May. 01, 2005

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