so i've started this book again. The Artist's Way. it's basicaly an intensive twelve week commitment to a lot of inner work. it's the "write three pages every morning", no matter what. long hand, on paper, first thing when i get up. and i did this morning. and i was actually able to fill the three pages. knox is doing the same book, except he has nine or ten days of it under his belt, i have one so far. it's supposed to a very in depth program where one basically faces up to fears and reaquaints themselves with their creativity. since we're both doing it, we'll be able to support each other through it. it brings up a lot of issues that one might neccesarily want to confront, but by doing so growth is made.

so i did write. and i discovered some things. namely, my inner voice who knows better. my mamma. "don't do it, you're going to get in trouble. no. no, i said no. you better listen!" and as an actual mamma, i rarely say things to my child that aren't for a very specific reason. namely, trying to keep him from getting hurt. well, my inner mamma has the same purpose. except she's very faint because i've spent years doing exactly the opposite of what she knows is the right path. so my goal here is to listen, to be quiet and take her direction. be obedient to what i really know is the right way to go. rather than being immature, and selfish, and serving my own will. more later, i gotta get ready for work.

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Last Five
treasure - Thursday, Sept. 06, 2006
need - Sunday, May. 22, 2005
where is here - Friday, May. 13, 2005
save me. - Monday, May. 09, 2005
nonsense - Sunday, May. 01, 2005

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