"Oh, what a tangled web we weave, when first we practice to deceive..."

why do i listen to coldplay. it always makes me want to sleep for a very long time. i am tired because i didn't go home last night. i need to sleep when i get home tonight.

there is so much crap to get done that i'd so rather not bother with.

this shoot with jonathan is turning out to be more than i want to get into. well, not really. it will be fun once we get going. but the prep work and finding clothes, and getting the house together, worrying about Danielle hanging around, cleaning my freaking room! Not to mention i need a pedicure and my eyebrows waxed. I don't have the energy for any of it.

not to mention the growing tension that seems to be mounting. artistic fodder... i suppose you could call it that. i feel like i'm being pulled in too many different directions. all are more or less "okay" - but that be about it.

why do i feel like i'm hating myself by having fun and exploring new avenues?

what i really want is a LOT of drugs. sure, that'd help. just like magic.

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Last Five
treasure - Thursday, Sept. 06, 2006
need - Sunday, May. 22, 2005
where is here - Friday, May. 13, 2005
save me. - Monday, May. 09, 2005
nonsense - Sunday, May. 01, 2005

ALL