i got just about nothing done today. mission accomplished. debating if i should go home and sleep or go out for a bit. sleep sounds really good and has been the one thing i've had my eye on all day.

fuck it. i'm not going to force myself to get out and meet people when i know that what i need is sleep.

i actually might forgoe this crusade to find distracting company. i don't think it is really neccesary. i have enough to deal with without enduring lame conversation with marginally attractive people.

and besides, getting comfortable on my own is what i'm trying to accomplish. not a string of lame dates and mediocre sex. gad, just like highschool all over again. i think i can do without, thank you.

i'm going home and getting in bed. read, maybe write. watch a mindless movie? smoke some weed. yup, that sounds good.

i want the air to clear with matt so we can start being friends to each other rather than headaches and heartaches. and damn, i want to hit that shit. i really think i can get my head around this. get beyond the block of seeing things as they were instead of how they are.

it is not that difficult. flip it.

his face was so sad...i could really see the hurt in his eyes. the anger and fear. he doesn't need this and neither do i.

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Last Five
treasure - Thursday, Sept. 06, 2006
need - Sunday, May. 22, 2005
where is here - Friday, May. 13, 2005
save me. - Monday, May. 09, 2005
nonsense - Sunday, May. 01, 2005

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