worrying is a really hard habit to break. i had the parent teacher meeting. the director of the school also came in and chatted about tuition and how she thought the boy is doing. it forced me to think about my parenting and what we'll be doing for the next couple years. he'll be ready to go to kindergarten in fall 2005 most likely. sure, that's another year off. but i get nervous just thinking about the maybe battle with his dad about where he'll go to school. the whole fulltime mom bit. the no partner bit. how can i NOT be upset about this?!

well, just don't let it get to you. don't think about it. i'm stressing about something that is over a year away that i have no control over at the moment. yes, but i have to plan ahead. i have to make sure things are ready. can't you just trust that things will work out the way they should? ummm, can i take a xanax? sure, go ahead.

and we all decided that 3 months at a time for him would be better than 2 months at a time. that way he has more of an opportunity to settle into either environment. he's fine with it, doesn't seem to miss me or his dad when he's with the other parent. it will just need to be something that i can get through. that means i won't have him back until the beginning of august. i will be okay, right? i just need to figure out what to do with myself. or decide to not "do" anything and just let the time go by letting what happens happen.

god help me.

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