one comment in the book i'm working in said something like, "getting sane can feel a lot like going crazy". that certainly felt like the case yesterday.

three months, this book will take. rather than focusing on, "when will i be better?" i should just know that i am already better, and it's always there to tap into. i just have to pay attention. worrying about the future and whether or not i'm making enough progress according to "x" will only hold me back.

existing just in myself and being happy with that, without clinging to outside influences. or looking outside of myself for that happiness. it is here already.

keeping my mind in check, focusing on what i need to focus on. not letting it wander to places that cause me sadness. doing the work i need to physically and mentally.

letting go of the need to control the outcome. there is a plan set forth and it will happen in its own time.

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Last Five
treasure - Thursday, Sept. 06, 2006
need - Sunday, May. 22, 2005
where is here - Friday, May. 13, 2005
save me. - Monday, May. 09, 2005
nonsense - Sunday, May. 01, 2005

ALL