okay, i can tell this is going to take a little while. because i am so used to getting upset over being upset and then it makes it worse. not that i'm "upset" right now. just nervous. a little jumpy. kinda scared that baby boy is going. anxious. okay, so can i take that and spin it into being excited? i don't know, i'll try. but it's sort of turned into a mini anxiety attack. like okay, i'm crazy. but instead of being just crazy i get worried about it. oh no, people won't like me! i'll be annoying! it's baaaaad! maybe my quirkiness is part of my charm. so i'm unconventional. but why the fuck would i want to be governed by "normal" standards? i am very abnormal. i'm a gorgeous woman with a quick wit and sharp mind. there is a lot to be said for that. and sometimes i worry too much. well, i'm working on that.

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Last Five
treasure - Thursday, Sept. 06, 2006
need - Sunday, May. 22, 2005
where is here - Friday, May. 13, 2005
save me. - Monday, May. 09, 2005
nonsense - Sunday, May. 01, 2005

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