and i wonder...and i wonder...is it, will it, won't it. where am i. too many questions, too many variables. too many scattered thoughts and needless worry. my state of mind vascillates hourly. hopeful, dejected, elated, blase.

"i give myself very good advice, but i very seldom follow it. that explains the trouble i'm always in...be patient is very good advice, but the waiting makes me curious. and i'd love the change, should something strange begin..."
~wondering Alice singing

it is so hard when everything reminds me of him. and then the guilt, oh sigh, so truly sorry. i don't want to cause any more hurt. i want to be happy.

so be happy.

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Last Five
treasure - Thursday, Sept. 06, 2006
need - Sunday, May. 22, 2005
where is here - Friday, May. 13, 2005
save me. - Monday, May. 09, 2005
nonsense - Sunday, May. 01, 2005

ALL