well shit...i have literally a couple of hours to burn. i am at a complete and total loss of what to do with myself. my house is so damn empty. i can't be bothered to read, there is nothing at all i'd be interested in on tv. sure, i could do the dishes but what fun is that? i've been home for an hour and have more or less stared off into space the entire time. i have a pilates class to go to but it's not until 8...and i'm not even sure I want to go since it starts so late. i could hit a show in the city but the thing i want to go to won't get off the ground until 10. i don't think i can be bothered. i'm not tired and i'm not hungry. i really feel like playing pool, but eh...

i feel absolutely vapid. like i don't exist if i'm not actively doing something or reflected back by another person. how frightful. my wee brain could probably make a case for non existance at the moment. as if i'm not physically present and this is all an elaborate illusion. it's freezing in here...that is not an illusion. jeezus, at least if i was hungry i could go find something to eat but i honestly can't think of a thing that sounds appetizing right now. i suppose i could traips around for an hour before my class. my class i'm not even sure i want to go to although i was certainly gung ho about it last night when i thought of it. i really should go...

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Last Five
treasure - Thursday, Sept. 06, 2006
need - Sunday, May. 22, 2005
where is here - Friday, May. 13, 2005
save me. - Monday, May. 09, 2005
nonsense - Sunday, May. 01, 2005

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