sunday

this is the first day in months that i've been able to sleep in my own bed, wake up at noon and lounge all day. i've lived in my new place for over a month now and have yet to go to the grocery store. this might be the first full day i've spent here.

the past four months have been a blur of time wasted on fruitless endeavors. fleeting entertainment, livid intoxication, a souless flurry. aside from the few friends i've made i have little to show for this time.

i need to research flights. again. the factors keeping me from baby boy are not unsurmountable, though they feel like it. he is never going back. i refuse to let this sad excuse of a man control my life any longer.

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Last Five
treasure - Thursday, Sept. 06, 2006
need - Sunday, May. 22, 2005
where is here - Friday, May. 13, 2005
save me. - Monday, May. 09, 2005
nonsense - Sunday, May. 01, 2005

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