much later. it is almost midnight and i just took the xanax. it is not helping. i so much want to sleep and all at the same time can't/won't. i think jumping from the ambient drone zone to downloading outkast from soulseek might have been the problem. well, now back to drone zone. one would think that trippy ambient toons and a xanax would cure any a sleep trouble. i am waffling. i can't understand why i always fight sleep so. my inherent nocturnal propensity? can one use inherent and propensity in the same sentence? don't they mean nearly the same thing. no, slightly different i suppose. i will at least refrain from scurrying for the dictionary. perhaps you could call it OCD. or in a better light it could be called inquisitiveness, persistence. i call it insomnia. brought on by over exertion, coupled with constant calculation and organization.

this is painful. turn off the cpu!!!

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Last Five
treasure - Thursday, Sept. 06, 2006
need - Sunday, May. 22, 2005
where is here - Friday, May. 13, 2005
save me. - Monday, May. 09, 2005
nonsense - Sunday, May. 01, 2005

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